POWERFUL PRAYER DORKS
My small group met this evening and I'd prepared a one week study on the power of prayer. It was something I needed. Something they needed. It was awesome.

The first questions asked were: "What kinds of requests do you pray about freely?" and then, "What do you hesitate to pray about?" Good questions.

I tend to pray more freely for others. I am not always specific in my prayers when it comes to my own needs. I beat myself up sometimes...just let go, just surrender. I've come so far...but the path before me into ministry looms and I want to be there...to become a woman God can use. I know full well He is using me now but that complete surrender...I long for it with all my heart.

I have a bit further to go on my debt, nearly paid off. And the house I just bought? God will have to show me what I'm supposed to do. My contract ends in a few months. I left a 3 year gig to return to a place with little future for me but it was, in part, because I wanted to work with my friend who's wife has cancer. I wanted to be near him. When he called to tell me he needed help I knew it was more than just help with the audit. I felt he needed someone around who could help carry the stress load that the audit has brought. So I turned away from a 3 year contract and took one for 7 months and here I am now...trusting God. (sigh) I guess, I guess it feels pretty good. I would do it again.

So I want to begin to pray more freely about my financial security...to place it in His hands.

The other issue I do not pray enough about is my singleness. I guess my problem is that I don't know what I want. Being a leader now in the Singles Ministry at my church, suddenly I take dating and even talking to men quite seriously. I'm freaked out on many levels!! It isn't in my best interest to make a snail's trail through the ministry...!

It's been over 18 months since Tom and I parted. The more time passes, the more confused I've become. I wonder if I'm meant to remain single (I seem to accomplish more this way...) This study on prayer challenged us to be specific with our requests. So I think I'm going to ask God to give me peace in this area. I don't know why I think this is so tough...to find peace...God only created the heavens and earth...this should be rather simple for Him, right? I'm such a dork!